Courage: The Legend of Robots - A Memoir of Tech, Gender, and the Return to Truth

I was raised on a horse farm in Maryland, where I learned to stay silent, disappear into other people’s moods, and bury my desires beneath obedience and performance. By the time I hit college, I’d mastered the arts of stealth, strategy, and self-erasure—both in the digital realm and my inner life. Through hypnosis, neurotech, and trauma-disguised-as-transcendence, I descended into a hyper-modern identity experiment that led me to castrate my body, adopt a female persona, and rise as a leader in the transgender movement—until the truth could no longer be denied.

I sought redemption through every portal—psychedelics, indigenous ceremonies, activist campaigns, global travel, and tech entrepreneurship. I poured my blood on the Sundance Tree, slept in the jungle, debated billionaires in Dubai, and lost friends to bullets and fentanyl in Baltimore. I rebuilt myself cell by cell. Through the flames of initiation, I reclaimed my manhood—not as a role, but as a rhythm of honesty, dignity, and disciplined love. I no longer needed to perform a gender—I had found a self.

This is not a story about gender. This is a story about what happens when we outsource identity to ideology, when we mistake the self for a brand, and when we forget how to listen to the intelligence of the body. I offer this book—and this life—as a map for our times.

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